There are times when my hurt is so overwhelming and the pain is so intense that I feel incapable of trusting God. My faith is shaken because God has not given me the life that I imagined and He does not answer my prayers the way that I want or at the time that I want. Like David’s reaction after Uzziah was struck instantly dead after touching the ark of the covenant (II Samuel 6:9-12), I feel angry at God and scared of a God who could have allowed this pain to exist for an extended period of time in my life. God knows every thought I have so He knows my resentment, my anger, my disappointment, my bitterness. It sometimes leads me to a crossroads and I must choose to decide to trust God more than I trust my own disappointment. Will I glorify God by the changes in my life or will I vilify Him?
Reflect on a time when you watched God richly bless someone else in the area of finances, ministry, physical healing, or the like while you were enduring something painful. Picture him or her as your own version of Obed-edom. How did you respond to it? Before you answer the question, please trust that the purpose is not to make you feel condemned if you didn’t handle it well. Rather, it is to help us see if we’ve distanced ourselves from God and grown resentful so we can then run back home to His heart. (Beth Moore. Annointed, Transformed, Redeemed: A Study of David.)
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